This weekend we are away visiting with my dad, mom, brother & sister in law. I ended up being awake most of the night and finally got out of bed at 5:24am. After showering and getting dressed I was excited to take advantage of the quiet house. So, I grabbed a book I just bought from CBD on clearance called Love Letters To God.
When I purchased this book it sounded interesting. Like something I would love to try and implement in my life. As I started reading through it I felt like God was using the peace and quiet around me to get my attention. I continued reading and was taken with all the quotes that seemed to speak right to me.
"Little deaths. Somewhere in the psyche all these changes and losses register as death."
Little deaths. They could be anything. The loss of a pet. The loss of a job. Parents who have divorced. Friends who have fallen to the wayside. Personal loss. Perhaps we didn't live up to an expectation we had for ourselves.
"Give sorrow words. The grief that does not speak whispers the o'erfraught heart and bids it break."
The author then goes further to say that in Psalms David says this, "Record my lament;list my tears on Your scroll - are they not in Your record?"
Her suggestion? Name your grief.
What I took from that is not to stuff down our feelings and emotions just to "be strong". Mourn, grieve, cry, sob, let it out. Cry out to God and then allow Him to heal you.
There is so much more to this little book. She has filled it with quotes and scripture and speaks from her personal, love letter writing to God experience.
I am inspired to do the same. What a way to grow closer to my God. Praying through journaling/letter writing.
I will leave you with one last quote from her book.
"If I am willing to abandon myself to God, He will give me back myself, my identity."
On this beautiful, sunshiny morning I am praying to God to transform my heart and my life. For a willingness to abandon myself and everything I have in order to gain my identity in Him.